The countdown: 121 days.
It’s written in my calendar and on the chalkboard: “121 days left!” For now, let’s go to T-minus 189 days; the first day of school.

120 awkward and adorable, some intelligent, others, not so much, fresh 5th-grade graduates slowly filled the seats of Room 102 over the span of 9 class periods. Over and over, I would say, “Welcome to 6th grade English: Writing con Ganas, with Ms. Slauson.” Ms. WHO??? ”Yes, estudiantes, you may call me Ms. S.”
The first days were like a honeymoon. Glorious! The kids were silent, too afraid to act up, talk back, ask pointless questions, whine about homework, beg for bathroom breaks, or yell out, “Miss! Miss!”
And then it arrived; day 177. The day they got comfortable. Oh, the questions, needs and complaints. They suddenly had voices. Loud ones, whiney ones.
The Scene: English 6 with Miss S. Room 102, David Ybarra Middle School. 5 minutes into 7th period.
Gilbert: “Miss, Miss… can I go to the bathroom?”
Ari: “Miss, what are we gonna do today?”
Miguel: (after 5 minutes of my giving directions) “Miss, what do I do?”
Samantha: “Miss, I don’t gitchu (get-you).”
Zach: “Miss, I help you clean the chalkboard?”
Vanessa: ”Miss! Miss! (when I don’t respond, she tries the full name)… Miss Wright… I mean, Miss Corona… Miss Garza… ugh… Miss… what’s your name again?”
Miguel: “Miss! Samantha just slapped me”
Samantha: “But Miss, Miguel was messing with my hair!”
Gilbert: “Miss, can I go to the bathroom.”
Odalis: “Miss, can I go drink water.”
Samantha: “Miss, can I sit in a different seat?”
Gilbert: “Miss, can I go to the office?”
Mireya: “Miss, can I go to the nurse?”
Gilbert: “Miss, can I go to the bathroom?”
Rebecca: “Miss, can I go to the bathroom?”
Gilbert: “Miss, can I go call my mom and then go to the bathroom?”
Gus: “Miss, can I have a marshmallow? Can I tell a joke?”
Kimberly: (Silent. Staring out the window.)
Robert and Michael: (Silent. Ready to learn.)
The “Miss” (that’s me): NO! ABSOLUTELY NO ONE may go to the bathroom. No you CANNOT have a marshmallow. I don’t want to hear anymore tattling. Sit down. Be quiet. I see that Robert and Michael are the only ones ready to learn today. Everyone else, get ready to listen carefully to my instructions. They will not be repeated. If you have a question, don’t ask it. If you need to go to the bathroom, hold it. If you have to go to the nurse, go later. If someone slapped you, turn the other cheek. Do you know what that means? Probably not. If you forget my name, it’s on the board. If you are thirsty, swallow your saliva.
The class, in unison: “Miss, what’s saliva?”
And those were the days when there were only 120 of them. Since then, a few migrant students (those who come into school late from working the fields up north) have trickled in. A few others missed the first days of school because they didn’t have shoes, books, rides to school, or ganas (desire).
My English course is called Writing con Ganas, which most of my students translate as Writing with Guts! I have discovered that my students are gutsy writers, many of them taking risks with English, their second language. We have a daily journal at the beginning of each class. Here is a sampling of some 6th grade journal entries:
The Journal Topic: The “teachers only” closet in Miss S’s room has always been somewhat of a mystery. One day while she was still in the hall, greeting students, you open the door, and peak inside. What do you find?
A world full of walking, talking school materials. It was exciting. (Markus)
“HELP!” I yelled. I discover something very unusual and out-of-the-ordinary. There it was right smack in front of me. It was a body. And not just any-body. It was MY body. My body was covered in my favorite food, spaghetti. I yelled my lungs out to see if anyone could hear me, but unfortunately, they couldn’t. At first, I was scared and afraid, but then, I became excited and nervous at the same time. My body was dead right in front of me, and no one could do anything about it. (Aaron)
Inside the closet there were two paths. One of them was a path leading to Minnesota. Miss S takes that path on her lunch break so she can visit her friends. The other path lead to her house in Weslaco. (Michael)
Pencils and scissors. (Miguel)
Nothing. I find absolutely nothing. All of a sudden, Miss S comes up behind me and pushes me into the closet. I am locked in there until my death. (Eduardo. He and I are working through things.)
A Catwoman suit. I discover that Miss S is Catwoman! (David)
Inside I found… MISS S! Staring right back at me! I knew better than to scream, so I slammed the door, and crouched down low. ”What was that?” She called to me from the hallway. ”Oh, nothing, Miss S.” I replied. ”Well, don’t let it happen again,” she said. (Cynthia)
I find a world of little green people, and a WANTED poster… of Miss S. (Zhanne)
Most of my students are wonderfully creative. It’s refreshing to live in a part of the country that doesn’t offer many distractions. There isn’t a lot here to entertain the kids, so they are left to entertain themselves. Though television consumes many of them, others choose the higher paths of make-believe, books, and exploration. Edcouch-Elsa, as I’ve mentioned, is a rural town, where a common pet is a duck, where goats wander along the side of Hwy 1015, horses are tied to convenience store mailboxes, students journal about their relationships with roosters, cows and chickens, and stray dogs mate in the streets.
Besides the culture shock of moving from Cosmopolitan Minneapolis to Rustic Edcouch, I am, at the same time, amazed as to how, in a matter of 5 months, I’ve become a grown-up. From taking care of one college kid’s well-being… to concerning almost every ounce of my energy with the academic success, safety, and happiness 130 others. From worrying about one student (me)… to facilitating the learning and growth of over a hundred 11 and 12, sometimes 13, year-old kids. From sleeping in, skipping class, coffee dates, college grunge, late night hang-outs, philosophy papers and Saturday night swing dancing… to 5:30AM alarms, taking attendance, drive through coffee, teacher clothes, 11PM bedtime, planning lessons, assigning grammar homework, giving spelling tests, and teaching hispanic kids to salsa dance. There are brand new concepts, terms, and acronyms thrown at me each day (this if for you, Jim): ARDs, IPEs, Modifications, GT, SPED, PRCs, PLCs, TAKS, TEKS, TExES, ULI, PFCDYMS…
It’s coming together, slowly but surely. With all the new stuff, though, I have to believe that what I tell my students, is true for me, too: “each day, of the next 121, is a clean slate. There are new mercies cada dia; take them and run.”